Author: Chloey Turner

Dear Dancers,⁣

Oireachtas season has come and gone, and I know that for many of you, the results may not have been what you hoped for. As someone who has been immersed in this over the past weekend and many times before, it’s been personally upsetting to see the sadness that follows when things don’t go the way you hoped and dreamed. Managing disappointment—whether it’s your own or that of someone you care about—is never easy, and in those moments, it’s hard to know the right thing to say. Sometimes, no words feel like enough.

⁣Perhaps you walked off stage feeling proud of your performance but didn’t hear your number called for a recall. Maybe you felt your hard work wasn’t reflected in the outcome. Or perhaps you had a slip on stage, made a mistake in your steps, or felt that the nerves got the better of you, leaving disappointment to settle in despite your best efforts. ⁣ ⁣⁣

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I know that feeling. As a former competitive Irish dancer, I’ve been there too—leaving the competition with a heavy heart, wondering if all the effort, late-night practices, and sacrifices were worth it. But I want to share a couple of things I wish I had truly understood back then:⁣

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One competition doesn’t define you.⁣

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It’s easy to tie your worth as a dancer—and even as a person—to results. We pour so much of ourselves into this art form that it can feel like failure when things don’t go our way. But results, placements, and scores are just moments in time. They don’t capture your passion, your commitment, or the way you’ve grown as a dancer and human being throughout your journey.⁣

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Every setback is a setup for growth.⁣

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Science backs this up: resilience is built through moments like these. Research in sports psychology shows that the most successful athletes don’t avoid failure—they use it. They reflect on what they can improve, adjust their training, and come back stronger. Disappointment can be a powerful teacher, helping you identify areas to grow while deepening your appreciation for the process itself.⁣

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If you’re feeling disappointed, here’s what I would love for you to do:⁣

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• Acknowledge how you feel. It’s okay to feel upset, to cry—those emotions mean you care deeply, and that’s something to be proud of. Don’t rush to “move on” without giving yourself the space to process.⁣

• Celebrate your progress. Think about where you were six months ago, a year ago—even the dancer you were when you first started. The dancer you are today has grown in ways you may not even realize. Did you tackle a tricky step this year that once felt impossible? Did you push yourself outside your comfort zone? Overcome an injury—or perhaps you’re still working through one? These are victories that no score sheet can Ever measure.

• Think about your next goals. Whether it’s mastering a specific skill, building confidence, or improving your strength and fitness, set yourself something tangible to work toward. Progress happens in small, steady steps, and every practice or training session is a chance to bring you closer to those goals.

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This is not the end of your story, no matter how much it may feel like it right now.⁣

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The best Irish dancers, including champions, have all faced disappointment, I’m yet to meet one that hasn’t. But they kept going – not because it was easy, but because their love for dance far outweighed the setbacks. They understood that every competition is just one chapter in a much bigger journey. This is just one chapter in yours, too.⁣

Can you take what you’ve learned from this experience and use it to fuel your fire?

Show up to your next practice with determination, focus, and a renewed sense of purpose.

Can you approach it with a beginner’s mind – that childlike curiosity and openness to learning that first drew you to dancing. Remember why you started in the first place, whether it was the incredible music, the connection to tradition, the friendships, the discipline of it, or whatever else it may be, and let that sense of wonder and discovery guide you forward.

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You are not alone!

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Finally, know that you are part of a community that understands and supports you. You are not alone in your disappointment, and you are not alone in your goals and dreams. Every dancer who has stood where you are now has walked away stronger because of it. And you will, too.⁣

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And here’s something to remind yourself of: so far, you have a 100% track record of bouncing back from challenges and disappointments. That’s something you can rely on.⁣

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Keep dancing, keep growing, and keep believing in your abilities. You are capable of more than you know.⁣

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With all my heart,⁣

Chloey⁣

Ps.. Our sports psychologist Dr. Mitch will be reflecting on the year with our academy members and looking at setting new goals over December and January. It’s a beautiful time to join us if you’re not already a member!

As a busy dancer, finding time to incorporate mindfulness into your daily routine can often feel like a daunting task. Between school, work, practice, training, and competition weekends, it’s easy to overlook the importance of mental well-being. However, integrating mindfulness into your day doesn’t have to be complicated. In this post, we’ll explore simple yet effective ways to weave mindfulness into your busy schedule, helping you stay grounded, focused, and present—both in and out of the studio. Discover practical tips and techniques that can enhance your performance and overall well-being, allowing you to embrace the beauty of each moment as you dance through life.

1: Mindful Breathing (5 minutes)
Take a few minutes each day to focus solely on your breath. Inhale deeply through your nose, feeling your lungs expand, and exhale slowly. If your mind wanders, gently guide your attention back to your breath. One of my favorite visuals is to imagine a bright blue sky, with each thought that arises being a cloud. Simply watch as the clouds float by—no forcing, no judgment, just observing. This practice reminds me, as someone who has struggled with difficult thoughts, that I am not my thoughts—I am the blue sky. The clouds may come and go, but the sky remains open, calm, and unaffected.

2: Body Scan (5 minutes)
Spend a few minutes scanning your body from head to toe, paying attention to sensations, tension, or discomfort. Notice how your body feels without trying to change anything.
A body scan helps increase body awareness, allowing you to better understand your physical state and identify areas of tension or discomfort that may impact your performance. This heightened awareness can lead to improved alignment and technique, as you learn to recognise your body’s needs and limitations. Additionally, taking the time to check in with oneself promotes relaxation, reduces anxiety, and fosters a deeper connection between mind and body, ultimately enhancing overall performance and well-being in dance.

3: Mindful Eating
When eating a meal or snack, slow down and fully experience each bite. Notice the textures, flavors, and aromas, and pay attention to how your body feels as you eat. Mindful eating helps you build a stronger connection with your body, making you more aware of your hunger and fullness cues. For dancers, who rely on their bodies to perform at their best, this practice can promote better nutrition, prevent both over-eating and under-eating, and reduce stress around food. It encourages you to savor the moment and develop a more balanced, positive relationship with eating, ultimately supporting both physical health and mental well-being.

4: Gratitude Check-In
Take a moment each day to reflect on what you’re grateful for. Practicing gratitude can help shift your focus to what’s going well, allowing you to recognize small, positive moments amidst the ups and downs of life. It’s about bringing genuine awareness to the present. However, I want to emphasize that this isn’t about ignoring how you really feel or forcing positivity. I’m not a fan of toxic positivity. Gratitude isn’t a “just be grateful” attitude that overlooks real emotions—it’s about embracing gratitude while acknowledging the full range of your feelings, both the positive and the challenging.

5: Mindful Walking
Whether you’re walking outside or around your house, focus on each step. Feel the ground beneath your feet, notice your surroundings, and listen to the sounds around you. A dancer recently shared with me that they walk a lot between classes at their campus throughout the day, and this practice has really helped them stay grounded and present. Mindful walking can reduce stress, calm your mind, and connect you to your body, offering a mental break during a busy day while also enhancing your overall awareness and well-being.

6: Pause and Breathe (1 minute)
Throughout your day, take intentional pauses. Simply stop what you’re doing, take a deep breath, and tune into your surroundings or how you feel in that moment. These frequent pauses help me, especially, to be more responsive versus reactive. Being responsive means taking a moment to process a situation, allowing you to approach it with clarity and thoughtfulness. Reactivity, on the other hand, is an automatic, often emotional response that may not serve you well in the long run. By pausing and breathing, you create space to respond with intention rather than letting stress or pressure trigger an immediate reaction. This practice fosters calm and enhances decision-making, especially under pressure.

With that in mind, it’s essential to begin practicing mental tools and techniques early to perform well under high-pressure situations. Developing these skills now enables you to remain calm, focused, and in control when it truly matters, rather than feeling overwhelmed in the moment.

You don’t want to be scrambling to learn something new at the last minute, especially during a competition. By practicing ahead of time, you’ll feel more prepared, confident, and ready to give your best performance when it counts.

 

Why not choose one mindfulness technique to practice each day or alternate between the options as you build your mindfulness practice? With these simple strategies, you can cultivate a greater sense of awareness and presence, enriching your journey as a dancer. Remember, even small moments of mindfulness can make a big difference in your performance and well-being. Embrace these practices and watch how they transform not only your dancing but your daily life.

Take care for now!

Chloey 🙂

 

P.s Head to the resources area and download my beginners guide to mindfulness meditation ebook for free!

As you enter a new season of dance, It’s a great opportunity to reflect on certain mindsets, habits or practices that might be worth letting go of. A gentle reminder that, “If nothing changes, nothing changes.”

Rather than mindlessly jumping straight back into the studio and training, it’s worth reflecting firstly on what’s going well and what you might need to let go of in order to flourish in both life on and off of the stage going forward. Please find some of the things that you might consider saying goodbye to this season..

1: Self doubt

Letting go of self doubt and limiting beliefs will allow a dancer to have trust in their abilities and push them out of their comfort zones, where the growth and opportunities happen.

*Tips: Reflect on past successes and remind yourself of your capabilities!

-Make a list of your previous accomplishments, revisit this when you feel doubt creeping in.

2: Negative self talk

Having a loud inner critic can create a not very supportive inner environment that is sure to steal the joy away from dancing. By becoming aware of those automatic thoughts, challenging them and replacing them with more positive ones, will foster a healthier, more supportive relationship with oneself.

*Tip: Ask yourself, would I say that to a friend and someone I care about? If not… Let it go!

For more on this topic, please find Dr. Mitch’s workshop on Self-talk in the academy on demand library.

3: Not warming up properly

Do you head straight into class and put your shoes on without warming up? Or go onto the stage not feeling warm enough for your first round, but much better for the second round? (we hear this a lot). Time to let it go and start prepping that mind-body for both practice and the stage. You’ll find a new guide to warming up properly in our resources area very soon!

4: Lack of focus

If you want to truly maximize your performance and reach your potential, you have to let go of distraction and get focused.
Here are a few tips:

-Set clear goals. (we have goal setting workshops available in the academy library)

-Practice mindfulness: this helps to bring attention to the present moment, reducing the tendency to get distracted by external factors or wandering thoughts.

-Prioritize rest and recovery! Mental and physical fatigue can greatly affect focus. Ensure adequate rest, sleep and recovery to help maintain clarity and focus during practice and performances.

5: Perfectionism

Why? Well, who wants to strive for something that doesn’t even exist? Being a perfectionist is a surefire way to lead to unnecessary stress, fear of failure and burnout. This season let’s enjoy the process, allow for, embrace and learn from mistakes, and strive for excellence, not perfection!

*Tip: Practice self compassion – Be kind to yourself, especially when you make mistakes. Please understand that your progress is far more valuable than perfection.

6: Comparison

Firstly, we are all unique, there’s only one of us in this world.. Pretty cool huh? So it seems a little silly to compare ourselves to others!
This will diminish self-esteem and lead to feelings of being unworthy. Let’s focus on our own unique strengths and personal growth. Appreciate yourself!

“Don’t try to be like anyone else, be the first YOU!” – Chloey

7: Overtraining

Injury rates are high in dancers and can side line a dancer for weeks, even months. Things such as following a balanced training schedule, tapering leading up to competitions, listening to your own body, strength training, maintaining a healthy diet and sleep all play roles in limiting overtraining and preventing injuries.

8: Perceived limitations

Believing that certain skills and goals are beyond reach can limit a dancer’s potential. Allow yourself to explore your true capabilities.

Personally, I achieved more than I ever thought possible in my career, but it would have been a whole lot more enjoyable if I was able to support and coach myself just like my dad did for me.
Let’s learn to identify the specific limiting thoughts and beliefs we hold about ourselves, challenge them and develop our own inner coach.

*Tip: Can you shift your perspective? Instead of viewing limitations as obstacles, see them as opportunities to learn and improve! This mindset is very helpful in opening up new possibilities.

9: Past results

It’s important to learn from the past, both successes and setbacks and then move on..
My biggest tip would be to, again, practice self-compassion – treat yourself with kindness and understanding, especially if results from last season were disappointing. Your results do not define your worth or potential going forward. Choose today to let the past go. This new season is a fresh, new exciting opportunity. Let’s go!

Please find a “What my results mean about me” workshop with Dr. Mitch in the academy library.

10: A focus only on the Outcome/end result

While having a big goal, dream and vision can be great to drive motivation, if a dancer solely keeps their focus here they might miss some valuable lessons learned through the process. It’s important to not only set outcome goals but the ones you can control in this moment – welcome performance and process goals. These are the ones that we are in control of, they promote continuous improvement and allow a dancer to track progress vs just waiting on an end result.

*You’ll find goal setting workshops along with PDFs in the academy library.

“Trust that your hard work will get you the results that you desire.”

Do any of these resonate with you? Anything else that you can think of? Share with us! We’d love to hear from you.

Please check out just some of the ways in which the Head to Toe academy team can help you this season..

-Our warm up guide and follow along warm ups can be found in the academy on demand library.

-Goal setting workshops with Dr. Mitch & Chloey. Includes PDFs and worksheets.

-Confidence and Performance workshop with Dr. Mitch.

-Stage presence workshop with Chloey.

-Oireachtas strength and conditioning prep with Coach Fran starting in September. More info coming soon.

-Technique with Maggie. From Toe height to core strength and alignment classes.

-Nutrition classes on hydration, energy and recovery with Dr. Meghan Brown.

-A library of skills to enhance your dancing, from turnout to front clicks and meditations.

Any questions at all, please contact us: info@fromheadtotoeacademy.com

Happy new dance season!

Chloey 🙂

 “Not many people achieve their dreams from around here, fair play to ya.” — my taxi driver today from my home town as I was heading back to the States.

This statement saddened me and also got me thinking.

If that’s the kind of belief you have(a belief I used to hold, so there’s no judgement here) then you’ll attach yourself to it, identify with those beliefs and never allow yourself any opportunity!

If I had stayed attached to the belief that nobody from the small town I grew up in achieves their dreams – which means I can’t possibly either – then of course I’d have taken very little action. I didn’t take action throughout my teens, in fact, for that very reason: my belief system!

Before I had the opportunity to audition for Riverdance, I spent my late teens doing pretty much nothing. I quit everything during a time of life that was supposed to be fun and exciting. I was depressed and agoraphobic for a long period of time. Luckily I had some support.

Of course, those who are given more of a chance from the very beginning and have a healthy, loving upbringing, a supportive family that help to enhance your self esteem and help to open doors of opportunity for you are lucky. But not having those things doesn’t mean that that’s it, that you don’t matter, you’re not worthy, that you must settle or give up!

Anything to do with the mind is complex and it’s never a case of ‘just do this and just do that.’ A multitude of factors can play a role in a person achieving goals and dreams. It’s also certainly not a case of some people ‘just have it’ and are given opportunities, and some people don’t and aren’t. The truth is that we are all born with the capability to achieve anything we want (within reason—I’m definitely a few brain cells short of being a brain surgeon or an astronaut), but for the most part we really do have unlimited potential.

Without delving deeply into the nature vs nurture debate, generally we aren’t born with such inhibiting, negative self-beliefs. We are born with confidence. We couldn’t care less if we were seen to fall over as a little child or if we drew something messy, painted over the lines, got the answers wrong, made massive mistakes, looked silly dancing, etc. No matter who we were, where we grew up and with whom, none of that mattered for, until…

Seemingly, a huge cause of our suffering as humans is not allowing ourselves to reach our potential: not having a passion, a greater purpose but instead staying within the confines of limiting beliefs that are simply not true. We can hold onto those beliefs for dear life. Such mentality ends up becoming the habitual norm and can be very hard to relinquish.

If you’re petrified of what you might consider to be seen to “fail” then it can be debilitating and you’ll stay within your comfort zone, although the paradox is that it’s not actually very comfortable at all in that zone, you’re still suffering!

Understandably, change can be super uncomfortable. Our nervous systems can be hardwired to keep us feeling safe and comfortable – however, change is inevitable. One of the most helpful things I’m learning through my study of ancient texts is to be more comfortable with the inevitable: Change!

A couple of questions I’ve found to be helpful to ask in this life at any stage, but especially when feeling stuck, lost and/or unsatisfied are: “What do I really want?” Behind the noise, the crappy, outdated, unhelpful beliefs you’ve picked up, the lies that your mind comes to believe, what is it that you really want and need? Not, “What is everybody else doing?, What ‘should’ I be doing? What would others like for and expect of me?”

But, what do I want? “What will I have to let go of for this to happen?” “What is the next action/step that I can take?” Even just a teeny tiny little step or habit change can be built upon.

There’s truth in the cliché, “If nothing changes, nothing changes.”

I’ve found it helpful to drop into the body first as you try to dig deeper, to help to still the mind a little – although not an easy task for the over thinker – it can take some practice to quieten down a negative mind. Try taking a few deep breaths & just move your body. Aim to let go of judgements (the mind [ego] likes to judge) and get a little more curious!

At least give it a go! Give life a go!

You might just make mistakes, in-fact, you almost certainly will. You could also completely fail and head right back to square one, but isn’t doing nothing, taking no action at all also failing?

As Adam Grant reminded us in a podcast episode with Steven Bartlett – “If you look at regret, psychologists find that our biggest regrets in the long run are not our failures, they are our failures to try. It’s the actions not taken that we wish we could re do the most.”

I honestly believe that this world rewards the resilient folk in the end. The ones who persevere despite a tough upbringing, a lack of family care and support, mental disruptions, trauma of any kind, etc.

Imagine how boring the book or movie would be if it went something like: Child born, happy, loving family, was smart, high self-esteem, went to college, got the job and partner of their dreams, two children, lived in a big house by the sea, no challenges or adversity whatsoever… BORING!

For most, it just doesn’t work like that. One is reminded of the book “The Hero’s Journey.” A highly inspiring and recommended read.

Deeper and further motivation for finding and/or pursuing your passion is to master and own it to the best of your ability, so that you may then share your gifts with the world, to be of service and perhaps, eventually, pass along your experience, expertise, knowledge & wisdom to the subsequent generations. What greater fulfillment and purpose than the passing down of your passion to others, to ensure the existence of your thing?

I don’t believe I’ve yet reached my fullest potential and, maybe, I never will, but I will certainly persist in that endeavor. I still come face-to-face with old beliefs quite often—that feeling of not enoughness is exhausting.

I also have become aware of what triggers these thoughts and beliefs to arise, which allows me to more easily work through them. Being compassionate towards myself has been a huge part of my healing and growth.

This life can seem like a battle for sure, but so far we’ve won every battle!

I’ll leave you with this: One of the great things about being human is that we have the power to make choices.

Choose to let go of limiting beliefs.

Choose to regulate that nervous system—get unstuck from old patterns.

Choose to surround yourself with helpful, kind people.

Choose to set boundaries with those who aren’t those things!

Choose to ditch comparisons.

Choose to stay in your own lane.

Choose whatever YOU want.

Choose yourself!

– Go easy on yourselves.

 

Chloey xx

We are coming into Valentine’s week — A holiday where the first things we think about are loved-up couples, dinner dates, giving gifts, and showing love and kindness towards others. I walked into a store earlier, and it was full of love heart balloons, flowers (I brought myself some, of course…cue Miley Cyrus “Flowers” please), chocolates, little trinkets, and cards to share with the special people in our lives.

Expressing love and kindness towards others is a beautiful thing, but equally important is showing love and kindness toward ourselves. This is what I plan to focus most of my energy on this Valentine’s week.

This may not be the scientific definition of self-love, but to me, as someone on a journey toward it and actively practicing it, self-love is an overall acceptance of myself; it’s an appreciation for all parts of myself. Being an understanding, forgiving, compassionate friend to myself no matter what is going on in life. Ultimately, treating myself in the same way that I treat others is all part of the process.

Is this easy? Have I always treated myself with love and kindness? Nope! Do I still struggle with this self-love stuff from time to time? Absolutely!

As a former competitive and professional dancer and now a proud “forever student” and educator, I’ve heard all the negative self-talk in the world — between my own two ears and amongst thousands of other dancers. We can be pretty hard on ourselves! Perfectionism, unhelpful self-talk, and self-criticism are rife in the dance world. When consumed by unhelpful,  judgmental thoughts and limiting beliefs, it can be very difficult to treat ourselves with the love and kindness that we so deserve.

We know that berating ourselves when we make mistakes or fall short of our goals doesn’t do us any good and won’t make us any better at dance; it’s simply unproductive and exhausting. Yet, for many, this self-deprecating mindset is the norm for them, and it’s really not very loving at all. It can be hard to break out of those habitual inner thoughts and train your brain to speak differently to you.

It’s during tough times that it can be the most challenging to offer ourselves love and kindness, which is strange because when a loved one or close friend is struggling, we tend to respond with care.

The good news is that we can practice, just like we practice dance, technique, and getting physically strong.

As you begin to practice positive self-talk, you might start to find yourself celebrating yourself more often, paying more attention to your strengths, and taking time to listen to yourself and your own needs. You might begin to worry less about external validation and ultimately enjoy life and dance a whole lot more.

If that sounds good to you, then read on as I share a couple of the main things I’ve learned and adopted in my journey towards a more loving, respectful relationship with myself so far.

While I love a good self-care activity (a bubble bath, a face mask, and a green smoothie), I’ve come to realize that none of that makes a great deal of difference to my well-being if my thoughts and beliefs about myself are not very nice.

Cultivating self-love for me starts with Awareness. Being mindful of my self-talk.

It’s not about trying to fight the inner critic and pushing it away; it’s about sitting with it and developing a different relationship with that voice. I’ve learned to accept and even appreciate the fact that the mind is just doing its job by thinking! That’s its one and only constant job. And sometimes the thoughts are a little unhelpful, so I’ll pause, breathe, and say, “Okay, I hear you. You’re trying to keep me safe, but you’re not helpful at this time.”

Yes, I quite literally talk to it. When I do this, I find that I am not those thoughts. I am not that inner voice. I can observe it and choose not to get swept up in that narrative. It gets easier to let go as I remind myself that these are just thoughts, not facts.

So the next time that inner critic shows up, try to sit with it, befriend it even. That’s the hard part — that pause before we allow it to run wild and affect our behaviors and actions in an unhelpful way. Then, see if you can replace it with a kinder, more compassionate voice. That leads me to the topic of compassion towards yourself.

I’m a huge fan of the work of Dr. Kristin Neff. She is a pioneer in the field of self-compassion research. Google her and look into her work; she’s just wonderful. But in essence, Kristin Neff asks us to imagine how we would interact with a friend who is struggling. What would we say to them? Imagine saying, “You suck at dancing,” “You still can’t get that Reel step,” or “Your turnout is awful.” I can’t imagine having a single friend if we spoke to them that way. It’s actually funny to think about saying that to someone else because we never would!

Neff invites us to think about how we speak to ourselves compared to how we would talk to a friend. The difference can be quite shocking!

So the next time you’re having a tough time, ask yourself, how can I comfort myself in this moment? What would I say to my best friend if they were in my position?

Finally, I highly recommend using mindfulness and meditation techniques to cultivate love and kindness towards yourself, especially if it is something you struggle with. Mindfulness, simply put, is a non-judgmental awareness of the present moment. It can help us learn how to quiet our inner chatter.

Mindfulness often embodies several attitudes, which I share in my Beginners Guide to Mindfulness Meditation eBook. You can click the link below to download.

We also have some lovely guided mindfulness meditations in the Academy’s on-demand library for you if you’d like to create a bit of internal space surrounding your thoughts this week.

Take care of yourselves, lovely dancers. Embrace your unique self, and make sure to show yourselves love this week and beyond.

With love & gratitude,

Chloey 🙂

Beginners Guide to Mindfulness Meditation eBook: https://fromheadtotoeacademy.com/get-a-free-e-book-here/

Some of my thoughts on School, A levels, leaving certs and grades etc, because I’m back in the UK and I’m hearing about it everywhere..

I imagine there are many different emotional responses with A level results out across the country – ranging from pure joy and relief to disappointment and fear.
For those that are celebrating results, after the last couple of years we’ve had, it’s incredible – Huge congratulations, enjoy the celebrations and whatever career path you choose. I always admired the students getting those grades ????????????

For those of you that are upset with your grades and left feeling a little defeated – I’d really just love to remind you from experience that poor grades are nothing to do with your capabilities, your worth & value as a human and it certainly doesn’t mean that you can’t go on to achieve your dreams and make a difference in this world.

Maybe you’re not even sure at this young age what it is that you want to do and where you want to go. It can be a confusing time. But that’s ok, clarity will come to you soon ???????? confusion is normal.

To say I was unengaged at school would be an understatement, I was struggling to learn and had very little support.
A maths teacher of mine told me I was living in a fantasy world wishing to be either a dancer or an Olympic running athlete ????

“What’s wrong with living in a fantasy world” I would ask.
Oh how It would be lovely to meet this teacher again now!


My hope is that the school system will make some changes and encourage the creatives and not just the academic. As of now I don’t believe this is happening, certainly not where I grew up anyway.

This blog post isn’t me suggesting that school, education and grades aren’t important- of course they are. Colleges will look at your grades, many employers will also look at grades, what I’m saying is that there are still plenty of opportunities for the non academics, like myself.
I certainly appreciate those that are academics, I mean, where would we be without them. The doctors, the scientists etc ???????? bless you all!

One of the biggest, most important lessons I’ve learnt is that the shitty, disappointing, confusing times are an opportunity to look inwards, reflect & learn from the experience and as cliché as this sounds now – these times are an opportunity for growth.
I didn’t learn this at school!

My school troubles stuck with me for many many years, in fact today, I still have to do a great deal of ‘unlearning’. The words, “I’m not a smart person”, for example stuck with me and would go on to affect me in many ways, it became a limiting belief that I held on to and that would often hold me back. This came from my early life at school and me looking at my lack of grades and education and believing that only the top students became successful.

Not all learning is done in school. I learn, I learn all the time – I learn what I want to learn, what brings me joy, what I’m passionate about and what is a aligned with my purpose.
Really, we are forever learning – it’s not just something that you do until your 20’s at school. Educating yourself is a lifelong pursuit and this world is full of hope and opportunities now, for those with and without top grades from school, it really is!

A lot of the people that I admire and learn from through the books I read, podcasts I listen to and the courses I take on are by people that have overcome all sorts in their lives. Many of them were school drop outs and experienced lots of adversity throughout life, but they’ve ended up being the most remarkable people and with such beautiful values.
There are many many success stories of people who “failed” at school.

As an insecure young girl who skipped A Levels, got ungraded in maths and was told I wouldn’t amount to much, but who presses on and continues to learn to live a life that is authentic and aligned with my values, I’ve come to truly believe that the world rewards not only the A* students, but the passionate, the persistent, the humble & the kind hearted.

I just wasn’t an academic and no matter how hard I could have tried, I did not have a maths brain or a passion for math. To have been told back then that that was ok and to be encouraged to head down a path that would suit me more as an individual, I may not have suffered as much as I did with my mental health and wellbeing. It certainly didn’t help.

I’ll leave you with this..

Your grades do not define you and your future. The real world will reward you for your kind, giving heart more.

And as the lovely Steven Bartlett says, “Your life is a result of your actions, not what mark you score on a test when you’re 18.

Thanks for reading.


With love and gratitude,

Chloey x

“If we make self-love or body acceptance conditional depending on the size of our bodies, we’ll never be happy.

The reality is that our bodies are constantly changing, and they will never remain exactly as they once were, they simply weren’t designed that way. And if we base our self-worth on our bodies we will forever be on an emotional roller coaster of obsession, guilt, and shame.”

– @iamchrisyking

I like to journal frequently and recently took the time to write a letter to my body, because honestly, since I retired from professional dance my body has naturally changed. I’m no longer doing 8 2 hour shows every week for months on end. My work and training life is a very different now. I’ve spoken to many other retired dancers and their own bodies changing has been a real challenge for them. I get it!

Over the years I have made not very kind judgements towards my body. This topic could be a novel all of its own, but throughout my career as a dancer exercise was mostly about how I looked. I’d look in the mirror each morning to make sure the six pack was still there. It’s no longer there and truly, I no longer strive for it. I’m learning to love this home of mine (my body) and appreciate everything it has done and continues to do for me.⁣⁣⁣
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I have set some training goals, but I am dropping the “I’ll be happy when” story because quite simply it’s a silly story as I’ll not be happier when I’m 20 pounds lighter, that’s not how it works. I’m going to enjoy the process and be kind to my body along the way.⁣⁣⁣
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In my mind and heart, I’m happier and more content now than I’ve ever been and I do hope that if you struggle with your own body image that you can find some gratitude in all the good your beautiful body does for you!⁣⁣⁣
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What would you write to your body?

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Dear body,

Thank you. You are my home and the first part of taking care of you is by truly loving you ♥️ I realise this now, it took some time!

You have gifted me with the ability to hear, to see, to touch, to speak, to laugh, to cry. You allow me to feel – to feel happiness, sadness, fear, love, desire, confusion, joy,
muscle aches (lol) .
You’ve enabled me to breathe, to walk, to run, to dance, to live!
You’ve allowed me to experience this world in so many ways and you continue to do so,
And in-spite of the abuse I often give you, you’ve always held me up.

I certainly owe you a few apologies.

I’m sorry for the times that I exercised so incredibly hard and with little fuel in me. The times that I believed my face and you were what gave me value and that in order to be liked, to be loved, accepted and even employed, that you must look a certain way. I decided that if you didn’t look a certain way that you were not good enough.

My complex mind does like to take over ????
and I recognise that you would struggle to help and communicate with my mind when it was harming you so much – even though you are connected , you have often felt extremely disconnected.

The overwhelming emotions that showed up throughout the years I now realise were trying to tell me something, YOU tried to tell me things and so often I wasn’t in a position to listen my head only loved to take over and wasn’t great at connecting with you.. But it certainly tries now!

Although, not an easy task, I will do my very best from now on to not compare you to others, I promise to listen to you more and to treat you better. I exercise now not to punish you but to make you feel good.

In spite of everything, you haven’t given up on me and for that I’m immensely grateful.

Although this society is screaming at me to have you look a certain way, I’ll do my very best not to fall into these new “norms” that we so often witness and are told is what real beauty is!

This is for certain, I will not take you for granted again. My mind is healing and learning to treat you from a place of love and health.
I hope that you’ll allow this complex mind of ours (we are connected and now communicating) to continue to heal, to un learn and to love!

Without you, I wouldn’t be me and for that I am Extremely grateful.

Thank you for being my forever home.

Chloey

As many share their highlights of 2021, I’ll share some of my personal challenges & lessons learned from this year. Perhaps some might resonate with some of you.

I thought this year would bring clarity as to where on this lovely Earth I wish to settle, however, I still have no idea. Some days I feel free, lucky & excited by this – as many of my posts have shown – but other days a little scared with a sense of unease.

The lesson/reminder: Surrender & trust. Leap & the net will appear. When it’s meant to happen, I will figure it out, but also, maybe it’s ok to be a bit of a nomad!

I’ve often looked back at old photos of myself in the height of my Riverdance career. Currently, I am 20 pounds heavier. I am by no means over weight &, in general, A LOT happier & healthier.  That doesn’t mean I don’t long for the time when I could eat whatever I wanted, had two hour shows every night, traveled & didn’t have to worry too much about staying lean! It’s a lot harder now.

The lesson: Being 20 pounds lighter & having a six pack didn’t bring happiness! I must continue to remind myself of this.

I have popped onto Instagram far too often & compared myself, my work, my love life (or lack thereof), amongst other things, to others, & not once has it made me feel good. I’ve wasted a lot of time. I could have been studying a little more, working on my book, focusing on myself, strumming the guitar I said I’d challenge myself to learn, but, instead, at times, I found myself here just scrolling away.

The lesson & actions that can be taken here are self-evident!

I am aware when old conditioned narratives and habits pop up (which in itself is great–awareness is huge!), but it takes a lot of work & skill to be able let go of attachments from the past. I meditate often & practice yoga both on & off of the matt, but I am also a human being & by no means enlightened. I am still very much working on all of those chakras being aligned.
It will be a continuous practice for the rest of my life! A practice the whole world would benefit from.

The lesson: Continue to create space to observe & be curious when dipping into old habits, & when the inner critic creeps in, take time to observe it, manage it with compassion and kindness.. I ask myself “What would be the most helpful thing for me right now” and “what do I need.”
I try to speak to myself as I would a child or a friend when the critic shows up. Again, it takes consistent practice.
At times, I can be reactive & exacerbate a tough moment into something much worse. I remind myself that everything is impermanent & this too shall pass!

Sometimes this year, as I reached for my anti depressant in the morning, I’d judge myself. I’d tell myself I shouldn’t need medication, a pill . Then I’d remember how hard I’ve fought for better mental health & would feel a sense of pride and gratitude. I mean, I’m still here, I’m alive, I’m well, & for the most part, I’m content .

The lesson/reminder: I am not weak, broken or crazy for taking medication. Not everyone will understand & that is ok!

Far too often, I feel & think that I’m not doing enough. I know this comes from comparison—really that’s what most of us are doing when aimlessly scrolling social media.

The lesson: Stay in my own lane! It doesn’t matter how others are doing it. There’s only one me.

Overall, as each year passes, the relationship I have with myself does get much better &, therefore, I’m getting better at showing up for others too, which is wonderful because I feel the best version of me when of service to others;  for this I’m so grateful. I find life a whole lot better when I accept & embrace the challenges life throws at me, when I don’t judge myself for every tiny blip—like my relationship with technology, for example. I’ve almost thrown my laptop many times!

I hope you can begin this year with peace & not worry if every goal you had set for 2021 wasn’t reached or if you’re not in the place you hoped to be. It’s been a tough couple years for most, just getting through it is huge! Cut yourself some slack. May we remind ourselves that we cannot change the past. We can choose to let go & move forward with a little more awareness from the lessons we have learned & with new actions.

Concluding with a gentle reminder that the relationship you have with yourself is the foundation of wellness, keep that with you this year!

Have a beautiful New Year all! x

• • • Positive vibes only.
    • #Goodvibesonly
    • Stay positive.
    • Don’t worry, be happy.
    • Get out of your head.
    • Just go for a walk.
    • Stay motivated.
    • It could be worse.
    • What do you have to worry about?
    • Just be grateful.
    • Just do “this,” just do “that…”
    • Well, that happened to me too.
    • Look on the bright side.
    • Everything happens for a reason.

    
    

   

 

 

Certainly, most people don’t intend any harm with these kinds of comments and suggestions, but they very much smack of gaslighting in their absence of genuine empathy. They invalidate, minimize and oversimplify the harsh realities of real, human experience, whether directed outwardly to others or inwardly to oneself. It’s the emotional equivalent of watching someone badly fracture their leg and saying, “Eh… just walk it off!”
If this pandemic has taught us anything, it might be that invisible/unseen threats – germs, viruses and, yes, emotional experiences and states – shouldn’t be discredited, downplayed, minimized and/or oversimplified. Emotional & psychological injury, pain and trauma are every bit as real, serious and severe as a visibly broken leg. Toxic positivity is apathetic, forced, insincere and can lead people to further anxiety, isolation, pain and unease. Sometimes, it can take everything in someone’s power to express how they feel. Often, we simply need a compassionate and PASSIVE ear to which to vent without all the excessive “positivity,” solutions and suggestions.

 

Toxic positivity seems to be something of a pandemic, especially during an actual, deadly pandemic in which social media and its insidious, obligatory ideal to “live your best life” (or, to pretend to) is our main, if not ONLY connection to others. Social media fosters the projection of a constantly, disingenuously and unnaturally happy, high-achieving, productive, successful facade. Nobody is all of these things all of the time, nor should they feel compelled to pretend to be. The human experience is BOTH the yin AND the yang. How could one know happiness without sadness, let alone the very human nuance of bittersweet-ness?

 

I recently had a conversation with a dancer who opened up about the negative emotions she was feeling, yet her Instagram told a very different story. If you’re posting to social media frequently, look at your last few posts. Are they authentic or are you projecting a disingenuous image of your life and self to mask anxiety, discontent, pain, etc? Are you looking for a dopamine rush from “Likes” & “reactions,“ even unwittingly, perhaps? It’s important to bear in mind that “Likes” & ❤️-reactions are NOT the currency of a fulfilling, genuine life! We all deal with stress and various emotions differently. If you haven’t kept up the “positive vibes,” kept smiling, redecorated the house, started a thriving business, got your front splits, done a handstand, counted calories and gotten ripped abs in this last year, that’s OKAY!

 

Full disclosure:

– I have put on a little more weight than I would have liked.

– I look at my phone too much and also compare myself to others.

– I make mistakes most days.

– I spend far too long finding a filter for an image or video to post and I overthink EVERY word I say online.

– I am an expert procrastinator.

– My monkey mind likes to worry about the future more often than not.

– I struggle with loneliness at times.

– I am desperately trying to grow my business. I am certainly not thriving financially, however, many people tell me that I am “smashing it” during lockdown. I have my doubts as to the accuracy of such statements, but, like you, I am simply doing my best. I AM a Human Being!

 

I am, however, not embarrassed by any of that and now able to sit with all emotions (the good, the “bad” and the ugly ones) and not pretend that I have my shit together at all times! To pretend, to suppress —this is just unnecessarily exhausting. I wore the “positive” mask for far too long. Putting on “positive vibes only” will ultimately lead to more distress. Trust me, it’ll catch up with you!

 

My continuing journey and fascination with eastern philosophy, yoga and meditation has taught me far more than the physical postures involved. It’s being aware of my thoughts and feelings—mindfully sitting with them. Being able to accept all parts of myself is literally liberating. I truly believe that we can all find more peace and ease when we connect with ALL parts of ourselves—managing every part of you with compassion, even the dark parts that we try so desperately to hide. The very foundation of wellness is the relationship that you have with yourself.

 

I encourage you to be authentic, mindful and okay with vulnerability, and to not need to constantly portray yourself as ecstatically happy and 100% all of the time, whether in person or online. We humans ALL have our up-days and down-days, just like waves have both crests and troughs; respectively, both states are essential and intrinsic parts of human-ing & wave-ing.

I find the occasional digital detox to better assist in achieving mindfulness by shutting out all of the distractions and “noise” of social media. I highly recommend it!

 

 

-Chloey x

If you have dedicated your life to competitive and/or professional dance, then what happens when your career ends? If you’re no longer a dancer, who are you?

Many dancers begin their career as toddlers and go on to compete for several years, putting in copious hours of vigorous training a week. In addition to school and social lives, entire weekends are often dominated by competitions. Some may then have the opportunity to tour the world as a professional.

Dancers often personally sacrifice so much in order to pursue their dreams. We leave our families for extended periods of time and miss out on cherished events and time with loved ones. Some of us leave school for a once in a lifetime opportunity to tour. Some of us give up relationships.

There is very little that can compare to the feeling of being on stage every night, receiving standing ovations, being in the best shape of your life (and being able to guiltlessly eat an insane amount of calories), traveling to some of the most beautiful places in the world and meeting great friends from all different backgrounds who become your family. It truly is the Good Life!

But what happens when that comes to an end? For most of us, this occurs more or less around the age of 30, or, perhaps you were forced to retire due to an injury at an earlier or later age. Maybe you were ‘let go’ from a professional show. Ultimately, we all will have to face the difficult questions: What do you want to do now? What is your plan?

People would often ask, “Wow, how do you perform that many shows a week for that many months at a time?” They marvelled at the dedication and time that HAD to go into our training. Dancing athletes tend to be considered strong both physically and mentally, as we no doubt are, but, we’re also human beings. This stereotype can make it even harder to admit when we need some support.

If this is a worry and you feel you’re struggling then it’s very important to seek support. It’s ok and more than understandable to feel a bit lost. It’s an extreme lifestyle change and you’re likely to feel as if you’re starting over again. It can be overwhelming and very tough to adapt to ”normal life.”

I’ve dealt with this myself and have seen it in so many others. It can be a time that can make us vulnerable and susceptible to anxiety and depression. It’s a loss, and can, therefore, be a time of grief.

Sadly, I have been the witness of many a dancer being ‘let go’ by a touring show, taking the professional dancer by surprise. In fact many people don’t get the option to leave on their terms. The majority of people in show businesses must face the fact that one day their employer(s) will move on, whether you’re ready to or not and this can leave you questioning yourself. “What did I do wrong? Was I not good enough? Is it my height? Weight? Look? Or is it all of those things?” Unfortunately, I’ve seen this many times.

I’ve mentioned before that I’m not a psychologist or therapist, but as a former professional athlete with the experience, knowledge and wisdom I acquired on my journey, I feel more than qualifies me to give some advice:

• It’s important not to have your ego & sense of identity solely based on your role as a dancer. It is essential to have other interests and plans in place.

• It’s natural to want to give back to dance after having lived and breathed it for so long. Determine how you may do so, whether it’s teaching, choreography, strength and conditioning, etc. There are many ways to remain involved in an art form that you love and cherish. Giving back to the next generation can be extremely rewarding!

• Ask for advice. A sports psychologist, occupational therapist, your family and friends, they’re all people that could help!

More and more, athletes in all kinds of sports are talking about their struggles after retiring. Please know that these feelings are normal. Let us collectively abolish any stigma related to the end of our beautiful, professional dancing careers and support everyone as best we can.

If your dream is a career in professional dance, as mine once was, it can be the most incredible experience of your life.  Just be mindful that in this industry you’re on top one minute and the next you could find yourself without a contract. Drop all expectations, be present and thankful for the opportunities.

Ride the wave!

Chloey Turner ♥️